Amber Roshay Moved Back to the US and Wrote About it (And Also Wrote a Book That We’re Giving Away Here)

Some of you might remember the lovely Amber Roshay from her interview last year. She was the one whose students had prepared an awesome and very emotional surprise party for her. She’s also a very good friend of mine- one who happened to leave Shanghai and move back  home to the US at the beginning of this year.

One of the crappy things about living abroad is that your friends tend to leave.  I now have one less person to have coffee with here (sad face!), but this move has done Amber a world of good. She got back into her writing in a serious way: she wrote a book. A whole, freaking book. Which you’re going to read, because she’s an amazing, beautiful writer.

Here’s the deal: I’ll send you a free ebook copy of her book if you promise to write a review for it on Amazon. Free. She has worked her butt off to write something powerful, to polish it into something professional, and to throw it out there bravely into the big world as an author. I think that’s pretty awesome.

If you want a free review copy of the novel, leave a comment below and I’ll email it to you.

This is her book

Without further ado, here is quite possibly the only guest post I’ve ever published (interviews don’t count): Amber Roshay talking about what it’s like to go home again.  Her new blog can be found here and details about her books (yes, she has more than one) are here.

In teacher mode, in Shanghai

Thoughts from Over Here – The Return

Coincidentally on the plane returning to the United States the passenger next to me was reading Bill Bryson’s nonfiction short story collection, I’m a Stranger Here Myself. I had never read the book but the title resonated with me because I was, like him, returning to my home country after five years away. Every time I left the States, I always exited with the impression that I didn’t belong; or quite possibly never had, otherwise why would I have left in the first place?

Not quite the US, no (pic by MaryAnne)

My exodus wasn’t planned like I wanted it to be. I wasn’t returning with a treasure trove of money or back to a fabulous job; I was returning because I needed to. A long time ago I read a book about how individuals create footprints that lead back to where they were born. This idea of an invisible line, leading me home, brings reassurance to an altogether hazy future.

Below me, under the seat in a carrier, was my 7 month year old black and white tuxedo cat named Oreo. We adopted her from a non-profit organization that saves abandoned animals. She came to us covered in fleas and not weighing more than a can of soda. I tell friends she’s the only thing I brought home from China. Although, this is not true. I came home as a scared doppelganger. I had no idea who I would be or if I would be able to give up the expat life in favor of a normal existence. Once again I faced a new beginning. As Oreo scratched incessantly against the cotton mesh opening, her cries drowned out by the engine, I decided I needed to make positive changes in my life. The return home meant finally being brave enough to stop hiding. Travel for me had turned into a way to avoid being proactive in my life.

Almost rose coloured glasses (technically sunglasses…Pic by MaryAnne)

A traveler is concerned with the most basic elements: securing a place to sleep for the night, arranging a bus ticket, finding an Internet café. The experience of a new place is the primary goal. I’m always obsessed with new places. I became fixated with Prague in the early 2000’s, after visiting for a writer’s conference and becoming fascinated with the cobblestone streets and ornate fixtures. Prague became the setting for my first novel and is very much a main character in the story. My second novel is based in Thailand where I lived for a year as a teacher. I write about these places in order to understand them and to give them true meaning.

Shanghai has its moments (pic by MaryAnne)

This changed when I moved to Shanghai. My writing stopped. At first I was scared of being watched by the government. This was paranoia, although there is some truth to this delusion. In China, you learn to avoid the hotspots. Shanghai also overwhelmed me. I went from living in a small village to cohabiting with 22 million strangers. Once the claustrophobia wore off, I convinced myself that I was on perpetual vacation.

In some ways, living abroad stunts your growth. Expats never grow up because no one requires them to evolve. Chinese people allow foreigners in, but don’t necessarily take the time to truly get to know them. So they tend to make friends with other foreigners, who don’t have children and remain frozen. Society does not put pressure on them to conform because they’re not a part of the mainstream culture. Personal connections and family members are thousands of miles away and so are the expectations. Self-improvement, exercising and eating healthily are harder because existence is about enduring day to day, not what the future may bring. Sustaining in this frame of mind can be magical and it can also be dilapidating. It’s easy to forget about whom you truly are when you’re never confronted with who you were supposed to be.

Different from, say, California (pic by MaryAnne)

Some days, living in Shanghai was like living in a snow globe or a bell jar. Everyone around me planned their escape. Friendships rarely became long term. The longer you remain, the less willing you are to commit to a new friend, when you know they will be gone soon. For those who do stay indefinitely, they usually marry a Chinese girl or are incapable of assimilating to life back home. These lifers are not travelers, but rather ship wreck survivors on a secret island.

Memories of this can be jarring (pic by MaryAnne)

This is not to say that living in Shanghai did not give me more than it took. I spent four years there, navigating the subway, teaching the new generation, and learning to understand and navigate Chinese culture. The experience taught me patience, perseverance and acceptance. In many ways surviving in Shanghai is much easier than making it back home. I could afford the best restaurants, three week holidays twice a year, and a weekly maid. But, in the end these benefits lost their luster. The footprints led me back home.

Perhaps, I followed them too early. I returned to a country with over 10% unemployment, a struggling economy and facing multiple social problems.  Only time will tell. I find that I am now fascinated with Shanghai, much like my obsession for Prague years ago. I expect I will need to write about ‘my Shanghai,’ in order to understand my experience and give my readers a true sense of being a part of a Chinese city while being completely separate at the same time.

I will have to give a snapshot of the bell jar.

Comments

24 responses to “Amber Roshay Moved Back to the US and Wrote About it (And Also Wrote a Book That We’re Giving Away Here)”

  1. Jessica Greenwood Avatar
    Jessica Greenwood

    I’d love to read the book and write a review.

  2. Rachel Avatar
    Rachel

    I will read it and write a review, happily. I can’t promise to do it speedily, though, so if that’s needed, then I may not be the best candidate…

  3. Sally Avatar

    Me me me! I want to read the book, and then maybe it will give me the kick in the butt I need to finish writing (or at least get back to writing) my book… I hope?

  4. Florence Avatar
    Florence

    I would love to read her book and get my family in Europe to read it. They would probably understand how everyday life is here… So challenging…
    I’ll definitely write a review on Amazon as soon as I read the whole book.
    Good luck to Amber
    Florence

  5. Katja Avatar

    I would very much like to read it, based on this post, but unless you’re offering Kindle copies (are you?) I’ll get my own. Which is a double win for Amber because it means she makes some money from me. Woot!

  6. Erica Avatar

    I can definitely relate in many ways to the way she describes the life of an expat.

    From even just this post, I’m sad she ever stopped writing and would be thrilled to read her book (and review it)! 🙂

  7. Amber Avatar

    Thank you everyone. I appreciate your support. I can’t wait for your feedback.

  8. Allan Avatar
    Allan

    Amber, I lived in Beijing for a year and actually came to dislike the city. I know what was wrong, in a gross way: everyone comes from some other place in China, so like expats, they are not expected to grow up. No one knows them, they form no connections, they are there to make money and that’s about it. Getting them past the pay-me-for-my-smile stage was troublesome. Sure I made good friends there, but the best one turned out to be another Canadian. Aiyah! I’d love to read your book, and to write a proper review of it, and post it.

  9. Kristin Avatar

    I would love to read her book and review it!

  10. Barbara Avatar

    I’d love to read and review this book. As an almost expat in Japan, this intro intrigues me. Thanks for the opportunity, and props to Amber for her work.

  11. Edna Avatar

    “In some ways, living abroad stunts your growth. Expats never grow up because no one requires them to evolve.” I LOVED this paragraph. Would love to read her book based on that alone. Great post.

  12. Amber Avatar

    Allan, you hit the nail on the head. A lot of expats are just there to make money. I guess in some ways it fits the vibe of China as a whole. It really is in a place in its development where money is the most important factor.

    I really hope you and everyone else enjoys the book. I look forward to your feedback. It will help me grow as a writer.

  13. MaryAnne Avatar
    MaryAnne

    I’ve sent all of you a copy by email. If you haven’t received it, check your spam folders! Enjoy!

  14. Leslie Avatar
    Leslie

    I loved this interview and i can so relate to her description of life in Shanghai. I’d love to read and review her book!

  15. Lostnchina Avatar

    Amber, I’ve been doing a lot of reading on China recently, particularly from a business point of view (“Poorly Made in China”, “Factory Girls”, and “Mr China”), but the expat experience is never fully explored. I’m biligual Chinese-Canadian and have been living in Greater China for the last 8 years, but the reverse culture shock still gets to me whenever I go back to North America. Internet has made it a lot More bearable, but I’ve never been such a news junkie till I came to China, for fear of “losing touch” with what’s going on at home. It’d be great to have the opportunity to read your book and exchange stories about the expat experience.

  16. Stephen Avatar

    I would totally review Amber’s book, and having lived in China for a few years I look forward to the Shanghai one as well!

  17. Susan Avatar
    Susan

    2nd the vote for a book on Shanghai – but looking forward to reading and reviewing the Prague thriller in the meantime!

  18. Nicki Avatar

    Is it too late to get the book and add a review? I’d love to support her work if I could!

  19. Chelsea Avatar

    Just stumbled across your blog and have been reading the posts backwards from the most recent… is it too late for me to read/review Amber’s book?
    I loved the preview and the description of expat life. I think it is true of myself and other foreigners I know here in Beijing, and very eloquently put.

    Cheers

  20. Elizabeth Avatar
    Elizabeth

    Just stumbled across the blog as well, and I’d be delighted to read and write a review. Living abroad in Italy has made me much more interested in the stories of people who have similarly tried to make a home and life away from the familiar.

    1. MaryAnne Avatar
      MaryAnne

      Certainly! Will shoot you off the file by email in a bit. Enjoy!

  21. peter Avatar
    peter

    don’t want to take advantage of you, but if the offer is free, i’ll gladly take a copy, thanks.

    1. MaryAnne Avatar
      MaryAnne

      I’ll send you a copy by email asap.

  22. Ruth Vlachos Avatar
    Ruth Vlachos

    Hello, I’m a few years too late but i’m reading through your blog in preparation to move to Shanghai in October. Very interesting, informative and dare I say, moving too.

    Amber’s book would be a welcome addition to my reading if still available, I would, of course, leave a review on Amazon too.

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